universe

how does the universe work? is everything around me just my own imagination? am i creating my own world? is there something like 'coincidence'? what is real? am i dreaming? maybe... somebody is dreaming me? okay, now it's getting a little absurd, huh?
i ran into jens today. and michaela. both were my teachers at the agama yoga school. i ran into them. in bangkok. you know how many ppl there are in bkk...?!? and i ran into them?! then i met nikki. we were spending time at a restaurant. and at night. in the middle of the night, i walk with a friend through the backstreets in the middle of nowhere (ok, near khao san road, i guess) and we walk into an internetcafe... and i run into sam!!?? how the f**** can that happen??? how does the universe work, indeed? i'm pretty amazed.

dan says on facebook:

If you want to regenerate your life you have to have an inner drive to see your potential arise! Honor your creator by continually evolving as a human being! It takes brutal honesty and unwavering commitment! Become illuminated with life energy by eating raw foods, cultivating love, keeping the faith, studying spiritual books and being grateful for the hard knock lessons life brings! Keep growing!

thank you for inspiring me everyday, dan!

woman of the earth

i am a woman of the earth
i am the lady of the lake
i hold the moon in my right hand

and we'll walk the path that the old ones walked
and we'll dance the dance as they taught us
and we'll sing the song that the old ones sang

MAGIC

i feel the female power growing within me. i feel the deep connection to mother nature, to this wonderful planet earth. i am living in line with nature's design. i walk the path. ;)

wenn ich dieses lied hoere, moechte ich einfach alles stehn und liegen lassen und tanzen. tanzen, singen, schreien. alles vergessen und den moment leben. ich liebe diese musik. so inspirierend, stark und kraftvoll.

danke, spiral dance!

plans

i will be at the raw retreat in australia! i decided to go there. i belong there. my heart tells me to fly to australia... i will get to know all those amazing people i have met on the internet! this is so exciting! i think i can still learn a lot. and i am so thrilled about the fact that i can meet freely. :)) she is so inspiring.

JUST GIVE LOVE TO ALL,
jasmin

beautiful music

complicated miracles

people can be so complicated.
well, i can be very complicated as well.
i have to go to thong sala now... i need food... i am craving greens like crazy the last few days and i am thirsty non-stop. i am detoxing a lot, i think, which is good. really, really good. thank you, dear body for healing yourself. life is a miracle. :))
if you have children's eyes, the whole world is one huge miracle...

my raw family

i found the most amazing people here. most of all, the fellow raw frugivores are sooo friendly and i REALLY like them. the people at the agama yoga school are also very nice people.
everything changes. so quickly. i am changing. every moment. as i am typing this.
confusion.
i am so confused.
somehow in a good way. somehow not. i feel a little bit pain. why do i feel more for a person than the person feels for me? why?
the raw family will leave me alone very soon. that's ok. i mean, it's their lives.
LIVE AND LET LIVE.
BE TRUE TO YOURSELF.
BE AUTHENTIC.
LIVE YOUR DREAMS.
LOVE IS THE ANSWER.

love you all!

this made me cry:

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn't serve the world. There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We are born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us, it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."

The above speech by Nelson Mandela was orignally written by Marianne Williamson who is the author of other similar material.

ko phangan news

i am on the island. it is hot and humid. i am searching for fruit. i vommitted several times on the ferry. i made friends with a swedish girl and a guy from israel. have not met any frugivores yet. planning to go to agama yoga school tomorrow. have little time, so i will keep it short.
:)

healing song by mati

this is a very inspirational song by mati, a friend of mine whom i know from the famous 30bad community. i will hopefully meet him when i am in thailand. he will make a 3 months healing journey to se asia as well. however he will start travelling in bali.
right when i heard this song the first time, i started singing the song too and it felt sooo good. :)




Healing:

In my microworld im healing
Turning shadows into light i'm healing
why is pain hard to let go, why does this fear just hold me on...
all is part in the process of my healing

i'm healing
i'm healing
i'm healing

I'm going deep inside, i'm healing
watching thoughs, not identified im healing
a rainbow nation, a new cration, this generation will live the dream
go beyond where there is no separation

i'm healing i'm healing i'm healing

In our macroworld we are healing
our mother earth needs so much healing
from separation to unity
no more countries, no boundaries
just one earth, singing songs of healing

we are healing
we are healing
we are healing

PEACE!

THAILAND HEALING JOURNEY

i will fly to bangkok, thailand tomorrow evening. the journey begins! this is such an amazing thing happening now in my life, i cannot even believe it! this is a dream come true for me & i am so happy about it. i formed the wish for something like that some months ago and i first thought something wonderful like that would never happen to me. but i believe that everything is possible. i believe in creating my life. and obviously IT WORKS. :)
i am very happy that i can share this journey with you! get inspired! love yourself! believe in yourself! you know you can be the person you really want to be. NOW.

i am looking forward to...

... starting yoga (http://www.agamayoga.com/)
... feeling better and better everyday
... healing myself
... enjoying the sunshine
... munching on the sweetest & juiciest fruits ever
... eating the best durians ever
... being myself
... swimming in the beautiful blue ocean
... running & walking at the beach
... taking pictures of the tropical nature
... photographing my new friends, the fruits, myself
... forgetting about my duties
... journalling about my experiences, thoughts and dreams
... loving the progress
... doing something on my own
... letting go of the past
... being open for the new
... experiencing great adventures
... laughing a lot
... speaking english most of the time
... being good to myself
... meditating while looking at the endless ocean
... going to the fruit markets
... talking with my new friends and having fun
... dancing in the moon light
... getting tanned
... becoming the most beautiful me
... creating a leaner and cleaner body every day
... breathing clear tropical ocean air
... making a trip to the jungle
... reading books
... blogging & e-mailing (i won't forget about my friends^^)
... bathing in waterfalls

and so much more!
i will take the most beautiful and inspirational pics, i promise. i have already booked. i am so thankful that i have this wonderful opportunity. i am grateful for my loving and caring parents for supporting me in every way. i am grateful for having such lovely friends who invite me to their homes. i am grateful that i am doing this. i love myself even more now because i give myself the chance to make this awesome experience. i have always wanted to do such a trip. i love the tropics and since becoming frugivore, i adore the climate and the exotic fruits even more.

thank you, universe!
thank you, goddess!
thank you, friends!
thank you, parents!
thank you, honored self!
thank you!

i am sending my grateful thoughts and good vibes to all of you. may the magic inspire your life as well. i wish you much love and peace on your journey as well as i wish it myself.

I LOVE MYSELF. I LOVE YOU. I LOVE THE UNIVERSE.
SPREAD THE LOVE.

me eating my greens & corn & having fun! lol!

dan the man with the masterplan rocks

another video by the liferegenerator, i love what he says about simplicity & wholeness. yep, nature knows best, trust in mother nature & heal yourself.



i will try that recipe btw. nice idea!

favourite magical song

i love it. it makes me cry. it makes the emotions explode within me. it touches my inner self and it makes me alive. i love yann tiersen's music so much. and i also love, love, love amelie, the movie. i'll share this video with you which i have found on youtube today.



live the magic!

dan the man with the masterplan *lol*

i've found these videos by dan on youtube and subscribed. i think he is hilarious. he is not doing 811 - or at least he does not say so. but if you look at what he eats, he seems to be on a similar level as i am on. i've been enjoying my greens with fruits & veggies lately. the frugivore's lifestyle is just fantastic. i love it so much. and i love eating my fruit&veg naked, as a friend of mine would call it.

here is a video by dan:



if you like it, go ahead and subscribe.
for those who are on a dogmatic 811 diet: he promtes green juices which might not resonate with you. for me it's not a problem. he just inspires me and he is fun in my opinion. seems to be an honest guy.

have fun! live fruity! eat juicy!

2 exams today

i will write two exams today!!! i have studied more than last time, but i could have done more. you can always do more, right? welcome to our wonderful performance society where everyone around you seems to work only to live up to other's expectations. a few birds break free. and i hope to be one of them.

i promised to myself to study only when i feel like it. i stop this cycle of self-enforcement now. i have always forced things on to myself that i really was not interested in, only because i wanted to appear "good" and likeable to others. i am who i am. i am loved just how i am now. at least one person will always love me the way i am. and this person is my self.

i love myself. this is a life-long romance. :)

so, wish me luck for my exams.
i hope to pass them right away to save time.

yeah. i take loads of pics of my fruit. i know, i'm a freak! :D

raw hiking? how to hike, travel, cycle on raw and kick some raw ass? posted by durianrider on 30bad

have you heard of doug walsh? google him. doug walked the pct trail and tried to do it 100% raw vegan and i think he was successful. he got post drops of dried fruit, raw snacks etc.

ive cycled around the world 100% raw vegan and dried fruit is the ultimate fuel when fresh aint around.

sprouted mung beans, nuts seeds, etc are ok for emergency but they just slow down digestion too much and then your diet starts to hinder you. so for me, its FRUIT, FRUIT, FRUIT!! :)

FRUIT AND WATER IS ALL YOU NEED TO BE ABSOLUTELY POUNDING THE TRAIL!!!
so do whatever it takes to ensure you have enough.

cooked food is ALWAYS a shock to the body, just depends on how much vitality we have to how much people can handle. but cooked food ALWAYS burdens the immune system, endocrine system etc.

a raw hiker can ALWAYS travel lighter than a cooked hiker?
how?

*no stove,fuel, dishes, spoons and all that food prep crapola.

*more time resting, sleeping, enjoying the view rather than making sure the tent is being burnt by your pot as you dextrinise the last bit of rice imported all the way from china.

*dried fruit is the most dense calorie carb food. it is also the MOST nutritious food to pack when space and weight is critical. fresh fruit is the ULTIMATE when space and weight are no concern. dried fruit gives the raw hiker a true POWER PUNCH of nutrition without being a burden on the adrenal glands like refined sugar, maple, honey etc is.

* raw hikers still need a lot of water but not as much as a cooked, salt eating, desert mouth after your dry pasta sandwich hiker..:) so your water is used instantly in your body for removing wastes etc rather than just water retention as the bodies solution to pollution is dillution.

* plus you will wake up looking a lot healthier, sexier, prettier, natural or whatever you desire to look more of in a positive manner. no more salt face with puffy cankles and bloated gut ruining those photos of yourself against stunning backdrops.

*greater connection with nature. fruit poop is cleaner than poop with salt, msg, preservatives etc. do the soil microbes a favour and only give em clean crap to deal with!! lol!

*better example to your fellow hikers and greater connection with your raw friends on the trail. you think a bald eagle, beaver or chimpmunk are cook'n food? NO WAY!

*1kg of dates, raisins, figs or sultanas supplies the body with around 750g of carbs. this will fuel most people for a solid day of hiking. personally ive riden 340km on a kg of dried fruit. and go organic for even more nutrition. soaking fruit overnight improves digestion rate. eat slow and savour EVERY bite! :) as you check the next fig or date for mould or a weevil. cooked food eaters are eating weevils and mould and metal EVERY bite virtually. thats what we love about raw eating, you get to inspect EVERYTHING you put in your mouth leaving only room for the ABSOLUTE TOP SHELF QUALITY..cos everyone deserves it!!!

link

pics!

let's go hiking!

take a walk with me...

pics!

magical muesli

- 3 bananas
- 3 figs
- 3 medjoul dates

- put bananas, 1 date and 2 figs in blender/food processor
- process until thick and creamy
- pour into muesli bowl
- chop remaining dates and figs
- stir into mixture

ENJOY!

note: this is very, very sweet and filling. i prefer to eat it at noon rather than in the morning! :)

to be honest

i had a really bad binge yesterday. it started with lots of fat in my salad and a little bit of cooked food and before i knew what i was doing, i went crazy on sweet stuff. after that i told it to my mother who then was disappointed and mad at me.

she told me that she was very annoyed every time i went for overeating and eating cooked food. she said she does not understand why i do this to myself even though i see that it kills me slowly. i was crying for hours. i felt that she was annoyed by my behaviour, my looks, everything. she thinks i blame her for my failure which is not true.

i was relieved when my father came home. he held me in his arms, which my mother has never done before ever in my life i think, it was always my father. he really wanted to help me. he was loving and supporting, understanding and honest. we talked about everything (when my mother was out of the house).

he told me not to give a shit about the thoughts of others, that looks are not everything, that everybody should live their own life the way they prefer. he told me to do the things in life i really want to, to be true to myself. he said if i wanted to stop studying, i should do it. if i wanted to live into the day, i should go for that option. he said i should live for myself and not for anybody else.

there is more i could tell you, but now i think it is enough. you get the idea.

i will stay away from cooked for the rest of my life, it is no option, it is poison, and i do not deny it any longer. of course there are more harmful options and less harmful options to choose from, but they are all harmful. i do not understand anybody who knows this and still eats the poisonous stuff. my major issue right now is building self-esteem and loving myself.

i am a 100% raw fruitarian from now on. count it. this was the most eye-opening experience i have ever had in my whole life.

fruity, vegan & violet... pics!